Detachment

Being a law student opened my eyes to things which are only susceptible of being understood by someone who experienced the same. At first, I thought that legal profession was all about being heartlessly technical and apathetically mechanical... doing what is right regardless of one’s plea of mercy. I guess I was wrong.

A professor of mine once said that lawyers are very emphatic. They don’t settle for short, brief and concise statements. Instead of saying that the contract is void, lawyers will say that the contract is null and void. Others just say sell but for lawyers it must be sell, transfer and convey. For the myopic minds of other people, these are just plain verbal diarrhea used by those in the legal profession to crow, but I say otherwise. For me, strong conviction is the thrust of resorting to verbosity. It is a glaring manifestation of one’s passion relative to his/her claim. Because those who are in this profession don’t believe in the concept of spontaneity, they plan. That is one thing that I imbibed in law school. I now plan in order to conquer the insuperable and consummate what is imaginable. And this, I should say, is not mutually exclusive to law school. I do plan even as to the execution of minor things such as hanging out with friends, giving out presents and even allocating my scanty free time bonding with the members of my family. That is the reason why I find it very hard to accept things that don’t go my way. Why it is very difficult for me to bounce back from failure and disappointment. Why I always resort to isolationism when I am hurt. I guess being overly passionate about things can be painful. Why? Because there are certain things that you really can’t control. But then again, absence of any willful and deliberate intent from other people to spoil what has been planned is just an artificial refinement insufficient to shield you from getting hurt in the end. Luckily, law school also taught me one good thing- the art of concealment. It is the ability to exude vim and perkiness discounting the fact that you feel otherwise. That is the reason why the Rose Lyn that people know is a far cry from the leaden and desolate lady when her efforts are ignored, heart broken and plan advertently or inadvertently crushed.